Mind Over Muscle

Hello, everyone. Thanks for all your support. I have stop using this space for one year.

 

Now I mainly use blogspot and facebook. Here is my new blog address:

 

 

 

I feel I am so selfdish. It seems I admire the strong. I wish to be strong. What is the point? To smach the week? I spent time on training to be a guy who is strong physically and metally. What have I got? What is the different between doing this and believe a religon? Now I took this martial art to be a religon. It is the same, isn't it? When it is training time, I tell myself "Now it is training time, you have to cut everything else off." After all I found I am just a selfdish person, because usually I feel happy when I beat someone who is weaker than me. And that is the glory and honor I wanted? I feel believing in something will change myself, because I was not good enough. What is "good enough"? Last Friday when I was in Raffles JC, I heard all the players there shout "Beat Hwa Chong". Will this make them better people? These glories and honors are just something blind our eyes, which won't give me a better personality.

 

 

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They try to beat me
but they will not ever defeat me
This time we're on my battlegrounds
I'm gonna win, trust in me
I have come to save this world
and in the end I'll get the grrrl!

I've missed it, so twisted
and unsurpassed in my head
This sense of power has awakened in me
I feel I could take on the world
a day like this
my rage is brewing like a storm

And now the storm has grown
out of control
Right here, the voice of anger
taking tone
Cause now the fire
in our hearts explode
Baby, let's blow this joint
and build our own

Sometimes you just need to
level everything with the ground to
make room for all the things
you wanted somehow
And I have known it all along
the day is coming
when you will reap your evil ways

 

 

Now I feel normal. It's nothing of winning or losing. The most important thing is through competition I found what should I change.

 

I want to master a wonderful Wuchi-Mata

 

 

Why am I fear? Because I can't see the furture?

I just feel lost of what I am learning. Is electrical engineering really suitable for me? I feel borning now. But I don't know which field is good for me. I really don't know now.

 

I realize in my life I have been seeking for honor all the time. However I was too far away from honor. I tried Math competition when I was in primary school and Physics Oylimpic competition when I was in junior middle. For both of them, I was out in the first round.

 

Do I like electrical engineering? I don't know. Maybe I don't like it.

 

The problem is I don't know what I am going to do after graduatation. Should I be an engineer?

I am glad that Bill Kim was punched badly by Linc. Because I don't like his smiling face.

 

Henrry is a merciful old man who gave Micheal another chance, even he was smashed by him before. I think sometimes he took Micheal as his son.

 

One month ago I didn't like T-bag because of his killing. But now I have turned my mind. Although he did so many bad things, he still has something good in his heart. He want to have a family and start his new life. However, other people won't give him a chance. His image before could not be erased from people's mind. Isn't it ironic? Everyone connects with their own past. The reality is no one can start all over again. We can give ourslevies a second chance which won't be recognized by the society. 

 

Ok. Anyhow my wish this year is the story will end in season two so that there won't be any new seasons. Otherwise, it will become a second "Lost", and we all will feel lost.

I have got my first win in recent two years. It was not easy.

 

Through my three years judo training, I have realized the key factor of winning in competition is attacking, attacking, and attacking. Non-stop attacking, even I may be countered.